Hey guys. First time checking this thread here since the game.
I'm glad you all had a good time, by all accounts it went well. I didn't expect it to be so cramped at later stages of the night, there was one point where I just wanted to tell you to get the hell outside so I could set up

Definitely a few things that could be learnt from for next time though (heating, space, etc). Personally, I was fine temperature wise until about 6am when no one was around and we all started freezing.
I didn't have a good day/session. This was largely due to bad play. I finished -$270 for the night. I was not playing 100% focused for any point, there are numerous hands where I called the turn not knowing what I am going to do on the river, or hoping to hit 9 outs or less. This is never me. I played the 55 hand vs Dave on 5KJ82hhh horribly.
This has been on my mind for a while... but I am kind of over poker. Over in the sense that I am going to stop trying to make anything happen. I'm going to be honest, I have not been focused, or felt that I am trying my best in poker, for a long time. There are players out there working harder than me, studying forum topics, reading books etc, that are going to get things done. They are going to move forward. I could've studied harder for the challenge between benny the cunt and I, I haven't.
I would say I'm a losing poker player, but the DT win helped that. Actual figures would be nice, I feel like I've cashed more out than I've put in online, but that hasn't been for a while. I want other things in my life. A new job, a new place, among other things. I want to focus my life on things that are important, that are going to be important. I want to get back into writing, I'm thinking of going to Uni. I feel for the past two years I've put enough into poker. That is (largely) what my life has been - poker, poker, poker. I need something new.
But I'm done with poker, maybe forever. I voluntarily banned myself from Full Tilt for 90 days (I was busto anyway). I have no money on any other sites. If I end up winning a GF ticket from the MQF next month I will probably play it, just to go for the weekend. Maybe my mood will change later in the year, but for the foreseeable future, I am going to stop with poker. This is not due to the amount I lost over the weekend, that was away for months and had no affect on my bankroll/personal savings. It was there to prepared to be lost, I actually had another $70 inside but figured it was better if I didn't play with it, as it was just going to go anyway.
I am certainly grateful for all the things poker has given me, and will continue to. The friendships I've made, the relationships I've formed and the adventures I've been on are all amazing. I miss the days when poker was fun and I didn't have to put UTG on a range, or worry if a c/c line is better than c/r. I honestly feel like my best poker days are behind me - and I'm ok with this. I was nothing special anyway.
I'll still continue to play socially/post on here, but yeah... I think that's it boys.
Scott, this means you now have November free
